All of the Sudden

I am full of tremendous grief. Honestly I dont know how I make it through some days. Almost 2 years sober I am more manic than ever my bipolar is really out of control. Some days, like yesterday I was so manic I couldn’t even eat. Then my jaw locks up and I cant even open my mouth. I think I just tend to be a negative person. I am trying real hard to find the positive in life, but I miss my daddy.

I have therapy today, but really I think I am bored of my therapist. I dont have anything new to talk about its all the same shit. I did get a job I am hoping that will help me feel better about my life and life choices.

Landslide by Stevie Nicks… my dad told me this song was about my life…

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Mmm, mmm, mmm

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older and I’m getting older too

Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older and I’m getting older too
Oh, I’m getting older too

Awh, take my love, take it down
Awh, climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well, the landslide bring it down
Oh, the landslide bring it down

I am loosing myself

Published by sobeautifulm3

Hello I am alaina and thanks so much for checking out my profile.

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