Hurt my heart

I haven’t posted in a while I’ve been very busy. But my heart is heavy and missing my daddy today. So I just wanted to post about him and how great he was. I miss his smile his laugh and his wisdom. Miss you daddy

We don’t believe in reincarnation

Mt husband this morning said to me we don’t believe in reincarnation. What means to say it he doesn’t believe in reincarnation. But of course you could never disagree with him because now your being disrespectful. Honestly I don’t know how I have been with this man for so long. When good things happen itContinue reading “We don’t believe in reincarnation”

Dumb as him

My husband told me last night that I must be as dumb as my 18 year old son. Well I had just about had enough so I let him have it. He wad not happy he did not like that I told him about himself. My real question is why do men think it’s okContinue reading “Dumb as him”

Old me

Today I saw someone that I used to use with and we are not friends. It scares the shit out of me to see her because I know the falling out we had. But you know what I am 2 years clean and I have worked hard for where I am. So even though sheContinue reading “Old me”

No more

Is there ever gonna be a time when done with the way things are. The constant mental abuse that can only be described one way to what it really is. But if I try to stand up for my self the reprocussions from that are worse. What a powerful hold the narcissist has over you.Continue reading “No more”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

Mary and Marie

The beginning of this story Mary and Marie met in high school after Mary moved to Maries town when she was 13. Mary’s mother was in prison and her step mother had just passed away. Mary’s dad was an alcoholic and Abusive when she was younger bur for now he just was never home. SoContinue reading “Mary and Marie”

Depression Anxiety

I haven’t posted in a while because I have bipolar and my emotions have been all over the place. I passed the tax course and I will be working soon but it doesn’t help me right now today. I have no money. Seriously I have no money for food how the fuck am I supposeContinue reading “Depression Anxiety”