New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

No more

Is there ever gonna be a time when done with the way things are. The constant mental abuse that can only be described one way to what it really is. But if I try to stand up for my self the reprocussions from that are worse. What a powerful hold the narcissist has over you.Continue reading “No more”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

Depression Anxiety

I haven’t posted in a while because I have bipolar and my emotions have been all over the place. I passed the tax course and I will be working soon but it doesn’t help me right now today. I have no money. Seriously I have no money for food how the fuck am I supposeContinue reading “Depression Anxiety”

I hate Christmas

I really have hated Christmas forever. When I was a kid my mom was gone and my dad always spent all his money on beer. Now I can’t afford it and it just breaks my heart. I wanted to give my kids more than I had but I’ve only been sober 2 years.

Life Sucks

I have no money for Christmas. I am taking the tax exam tomorrow and I don’t think I am going to pass it. It seems like no matter what I do I fail. I am never gonna make it in life its so discouraging. Honestly this is why I use because I don’t know howContinue reading “Life Sucks”

My poor son

My son asked me to show him a picture of his dad and without even thinking I showed him a picture of his dad with his other son. Boy do I feel like an idiot the look on his face was so sad. Why do guys have to be like that just because it didn’tContinue reading “My poor son”

Abusive Football Player….

So I tell my husband about the Football Player and what he did to his baby momma and I have to tell you that you never know what goes on behind close doors. My husband’s comment was the video will never hold up in court because your not allowed to record “US” without “OUR” permission…🤔🤔Continue reading “Abusive Football Player….”