New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

Mary and Marie

The beginning of this story Mary and Marie met in high school after Mary moved to Maries town when she was 13. Mary’s mother was in prison and her step mother had just passed away. Mary’s dad was an alcoholic and Abusive when she was younger bur for now he just was never home. SoContinue reading “Mary and Marie”

Bipolar Disorder

I have bipolar sad severe depression and I used to mask it all with drugs but now my emotions are all to the surface since I’m coming up on my 2 years sober. It’s also been 2 years without my dad and even though it’s doesn’t bother me sometimes it bothers me most of theContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder”

Life Sucks

I have no money for Christmas. I am taking the tax exam tomorrow and I don’t think I am going to pass it. It seems like no matter what I do I fail. I am never gonna make it in life its so discouraging. Honestly this is why I use because I don’t know howContinue reading “Life Sucks”

Mental health thought of the day

**if I was truly gone would anyone even notice** And that’s on depression setting in

My poor son

My son asked me to show him a picture of his dad and without even thinking I showed him a picture of his dad with his other son. Boy do I feel like an idiot the look on his face was so sad. Why do guys have to be like that just because it didn’tContinue reading “My poor son”

Bruh What is going on…

You know I want to help the fellow addict and give someone a chance but if I go deep out in a limb for you and buy you food and clothes I expect a thank you. Is that to much to ask just to not act so entitled like I owe it to you ThatContinue reading “Bruh What is going on…”

Have I reached the top

Hell no…and I don’t think that there is a top I think the possibilities are endless. I had a triggering moment this morning just thinking of the escape I used to feel when I was using. BUT REMEMBER ..that escape is only temporary and the aftermath is horrible. All the belongings I have now willContinue reading “Have I reached the top”