Monday Morning Headache

I forgot to post yesterday I keep procrastinating my tax class Why why do I do that I know I need to do it what is wrong with me

Have I reached the top

Hell no…and I don’t think that there is a top I think the possibilities are endless. I had a triggering moment this morning just thinking of the escape I used to feel when I was using. BUT REMEMBER ..that escape is only temporary and the aftermath is horrible. All the belongings I have now willContinue reading “Have I reached the top”

What have I done

My 17 year old son is very cocky and thinks he is better than everyone. He loves to do debate so anything I try to teach him or say turns into an argument. What did I do wrong here…I tried to give him a better life than I had but now it seems like theContinue reading “What have I done”

Little ones

I’m watching my son do his lesson and seeing all the hardwork and money sent by the people who care help him talk and learn is all worth it for me. Even though I am not in the best state mentally I am trying hard not to be depressed and not to let my bipolarContinue reading “Little ones”

#survivingRKelly

You know I watched all these documentaries about R Kelly and I can’t help but think of my Abusive ex that didn’t want me to see my kids or talk to my mom. He would say horrible things to my daddy all the while talking to all these other girls. You know I told himContinue reading “#survivingRKelly”

My life

My brother is mad at me because my husband doesn’t want to take the kids trick or treating because of covid. We didn’t last year so its fine they are really small they won’t remember. So is that just me making excuses for my husband’s controlling behavior. I do not know how to deal withContinue reading “My life”

Hello My Name is Kash

Momma’s sweet boy Kash is almost 5 and still does not communicate very well. I am homeschooling him this year and also I have gotten him a tutor to come twice a week that I have already paid up 3 months because of the generous people whom have already donated. Words cannot express how greatfulContinue reading “Hello My Name is Kash”

#JusticeForGabby

Watching all this play out in the Gabby Petito case has me really reminissing on a relationship I used to have similar to that one. Not even 2 years ago… the pain and the manipulation is overwhelmimg. Then when you have the courage to say something no one believes you or “what did you doContinue reading “#JusticeForGabby”