Bruh What is going on…

You know I want to help the fellow addict and give someone a chance but if I go deep out in a limb for you and buy you food and clothes I expect a thank you. Is that to much to ask just to not act so entitled like I owe it to you ThatContinue reading “Bruh What is going on…”

Have I reached the top

Hell no…and I don’t think that there is a top I think the possibilities are endless. I had a triggering moment this morning just thinking of the escape I used to feel when I was using. BUT REMEMBER ..that escape is only temporary and the aftermath is horrible. All the belongings I have now willContinue reading “Have I reached the top”

One Post A Day

I try to commit to one post a day. My dream is to be an influencer or have a nice supportive following, but I lack the confidence to pit myself out there. Where are all the real people?? Everyone I know is or was an addict and I can not talk to those people anymore.Continue reading “One Post A Day”

Migraines

I have the absolute worst head ache today. I’ve been trying to find my friend Matthew the cheapest way to get to Tennessee but I’m not getting a lot of luck. My house is a mess and I’ve got a lot of homework. But I will say this any of these problems is better thanContinue reading “Migraines”

What have I done

My 17 year old son is very cocky and thinks he is better than everyone. He loves to do debate so anything I try to teach him or say turns into an argument. What did I do wrong here…I tried to give him a better life than I had but now it seems like theContinue reading “What have I done”

Little ones

I’m watching my son do his lesson and seeing all the hardwork and money sent by the people who care help him talk and learn is all worth it for me. Even though I am not in the best state mentally I am trying hard not to be depressed and not to let my bipolarContinue reading “Little ones”

My friend Matthew

I’m going today to pick up my friend who I changed his name for privacy reasons but anyway my friend Matthew is probably the most annoying person I ever met. His dad was 60 years old when he was born and his mom was and is an addict and has never been in his life.Continue reading “My friend Matthew”

#survivingRKelly

You know I watched all these documentaries about R Kelly and I can’t help but think of my Abusive ex that didn’t want me to see my kids or talk to my mom. He would say horrible things to my daddy all the while talking to all these other girls. You know I told himContinue reading “#survivingRKelly”

My life

My brother is mad at me because my husband doesn’t want to take the kids trick or treating because of covid. We didn’t last year so its fine they are really small they won’t remember. So is that just me making excuses for my husband’s controlling behavior. I do not know how to deal withContinue reading “My life”