New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

Mary and Marie

The beginning of this story Mary and Marie met in high school after Mary moved to Maries town when she was 13. Mary’s mother was in prison and her step mother had just passed away. Mary’s dad was an alcoholic and Abusive when she was younger bur for now he just was never home. SoContinue reading “Mary and Marie”

Bipolar Disorder

I have bipolar sad severe depression and I used to mask it all with drugs but now my emotions are all to the surface since I’m coming up on my 2 years sober. It’s also been 2 years without my dad and even though it’s doesn’t bother me sometimes it bothers me most of theContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder”

Depression Anxiety

I haven’t posted in a while because I have bipolar and my emotions have been all over the place. I passed the tax course and I will be working soon but it doesn’t help me right now today. I have no money. Seriously I have no money for food how the fuck am I supposeContinue reading “Depression Anxiety”

I hate Christmas

I really have hated Christmas forever. When I was a kid my mom was gone and my dad always spent all his money on beer. Now I can’t afford it and it just breaks my heart. I wanted to give my kids more than I had but I’ve only been sober 2 years.

Life Sucks

I have no money for Christmas. I am taking the tax exam tomorrow and I don’t think I am going to pass it. It seems like no matter what I do I fail. I am never gonna make it in life its so discouraging. Honestly this is why I use because I don’t know howContinue reading “Life Sucks”