Bipolar Disorder

I have bipolar sad severe depression and I used to mask it all with drugs but now my emotions are all to the surface since I’m coming up on my 2 years sober. It’s also been 2 years without my dad and even though it’s doesn’t bother me sometimes it bothers me most of theContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder”

I passed the test

So I am officially going to work for H&R Block and I couldn’t be more excited.. I’m still broke for Christmas so those feelings are the same!!

I hate Christmas

I really have hated Christmas forever. When I was a kid my mom was gone and my dad always spent all his money on beer. Now I can’t afford it and it just breaks my heart. I wanted to give my kids more than I had but I’ve only been sober 2 years.

Life Sucks

I have no money for Christmas. I am taking the tax exam tomorrow and I don’t think I am going to pass it. It seems like no matter what I do I fail. I am never gonna make it in life its so discouraging. Honestly this is why I use because I don’t know howContinue reading “Life Sucks”

Christmas Wishlist

I started a wishlist for my kids just thought I’d try. No one has ever bought anything but it doesn’t hurt to try merry Christmas. https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2OQAQ7U0RBESD?ref_=wl_share

Mental health thought of the day

**if I was truly gone would anyone even notice** And that’s on depression setting in

Abusive Football Player….

So I tell my husband about the Football Player and what he did to his baby momma and I have to tell you that you never know what goes on behind close doors. My husband’s comment was the video will never hold up in court because your not allowed to record “US” without “OUR” permission…🤔🤔Continue reading “Abusive Football Player….”

Bruh What is going on…

You know I want to help the fellow addict and give someone a chance but if I go deep out in a limb for you and buy you food and clothes I expect a thank you. Is that to much to ask just to not act so entitled like I owe it to you ThatContinue reading “Bruh What is going on…”

Have I reached the top

Hell no…and I don’t think that there is a top I think the possibilities are endless. I had a triggering moment this morning just thinking of the escape I used to feel when I was using. BUT REMEMBER ..that escape is only temporary and the aftermath is horrible. All the belongings I have now willContinue reading “Have I reached the top”