Hurt my heart

I haven’t posted in a while I’ve been very busy. But my heart is heavy and missing my daddy today. So I just wanted to post about him and how great he was. I miss his smile his laugh and his wisdom. Miss you daddy

We don’t believe in reincarnation

Mt husband this morning said to me we don’t believe in reincarnation. What means to say it he doesn’t believe in reincarnation. But of course you could never disagree with him because now your being disrespectful. Honestly I don’t know how I have been with this man for so long. When good things happen itContinue reading “We don’t believe in reincarnation”

Old me

Today I saw someone that I used to use with and we are not friends. It scares the shit out of me to see her because I know the falling out we had. But you know what I am 2 years clean and I have worked hard for where I am. So even though sheContinue reading “Old me”

New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

No more

Is there ever gonna be a time when done with the way things are. The constant mental abuse that can only be described one way to what it really is. But if I try to stand up for my self the reprocussions from that are worse. What a powerful hold the narcissist has over you.Continue reading “No more”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

Bipolar Disorder

I have bipolar sad severe depression and I used to mask it all with drugs but now my emotions are all to the surface since I’m coming up on my 2 years sober. It’s also been 2 years without my dad and even though it’s doesn’t bother me sometimes it bothers me most of theContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder”

I passed the test

So I am officially going to work for H&R Block and I couldn’t be more excited.. I’m still broke for Christmas so those feelings are the same!!