Hurt my heart

I haven’t posted in a while I’ve been very busy. But my heart is heavy and missing my daddy today. So I just wanted to post about him and how great he was. I miss his smile his laugh and his wisdom. Miss you daddy

We don’t believe in reincarnation

Mt husband this morning said to me we don’t believe in reincarnation. What means to say it he doesn’t believe in reincarnation. But of course you could never disagree with him because now your being disrespectful. Honestly I don’t know how I have been with this man for so long. When good things happen itContinue reading “We don’t believe in reincarnation”

Old me

Today I saw someone that I used to use with and we are not friends. It scares the shit out of me to see her because I know the falling out we had. But you know what I am 2 years clean and I have worked hard for where I am. So even though sheContinue reading “Old me”

New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

No more

Is there ever gonna be a time when done with the way things are. The constant mental abuse that can only be described one way to what it really is. But if I try to stand up for my self the reprocussions from that are worse. What a powerful hold the narcissist has over you.Continue reading “No more”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

I hate Christmas

I really have hated Christmas forever. When I was a kid my mom was gone and my dad always spent all his money on beer. Now I can’t afford it and it just breaks my heart. I wanted to give my kids more than I had but I’ve only been sober 2 years.

Life Sucks

I have no money for Christmas. I am taking the tax exam tomorrow and I don’t think I am going to pass it. It seems like no matter what I do I fail. I am never gonna make it in life its so discouraging. Honestly this is why I use because I don’t know howContinue reading “Life Sucks”