Dumb as him

My husband told me last night that I must be as dumb as my 18 year old son. Well I had just about had enough so I let him have it. He wad not happy he did not like that I told him about himself. My real question is why do men think it’s okContinue reading “Dumb as him”

Old me

Today I saw someone that I used to use with and we are not friends. It scares the shit out of me to see her because I know the falling out we had. But you know what I am 2 years clean and I have worked hard for where I am. So even though sheContinue reading “Old me”

New beginnings

I have a new job and it’s nothing like a job I’ve ever had before. How amazing is it that I can be worth more than just a server. Even if other things in my life are not the way I want them to be I am more humble and happy more than I haveContinue reading “New beginnings”

No more

Is there ever gonna be a time when done with the way things are. The constant mental abuse that can only be described one way to what it really is. But if I try to stand up for my self the reprocussions from that are worse. What a powerful hold the narcissist has over you.Continue reading “No more”

Skipped a few

I haven’t been blogging consistently because of my new job but I want to get back on track. Christmas was good sad my dad wasn’t here. Miss him I started a new job and I have my own office. Ironic thing is I used to be homeless and high in the parking lot of myContinue reading “Skipped a few”

Pushing Through

I find myself pushing through and loving my husband more and enjoying his company. I almost can not believe I almost 2 years sober but I am. I did a meeting this morning because I don’t want to forget why I don’t use. Why don’t I use…because I will loose everything I have and endContinue reading “Pushing Through”

Mary and Marie

The beginning of this story Mary and Marie met in high school after Mary moved to Maries town when she was 13. Mary’s mother was in prison and her step mother had just passed away. Mary’s dad was an alcoholic and Abusive when she was younger bur for now he just was never home. SoContinue reading “Mary and Marie”

Bipolar Disorder

I have bipolar sad severe depression and I used to mask it all with drugs but now my emotions are all to the surface since I’m coming up on my 2 years sober. It’s also been 2 years without my dad and even though it’s doesn’t bother me sometimes it bothers me most of theContinue reading “Bipolar Disorder”

I hate Christmas

I really have hated Christmas forever. When I was a kid my mom was gone and my dad always spent all his money on beer. Now I can’t afford it and it just breaks my heart. I wanted to give my kids more than I had but I’ve only been sober 2 years.